alas,

I feel this strong NEED to travel.
I was looking through my pictures in Italy and in Edinburgh and i suddenly felt REALLY homesick.
Which is wierd, because both places werent my home.
And the funny thing is, i dont feel homesick for THE place
[ok mebbe a bit for the place because both places were wonderful!]
but rather, all the travelling,
being in new places,
meeting friendly locals,
never knowing what your gonna do next because NO WAY IN HELL can the thing that your doing ever be a part of your everyday routine.
Breathing that exotic air, feeling like ur on an adventure.
I miss it so much i could cry this very moment.
Its heartbreaking.

I've had enough of Malaysian beaches thank you very much
Because its Malaysia theres just not that extra zing to it
the "OMG i can be lost at any moment in a foreign country and all i can rely on is my survival skills"
the adventure,the thrill its even better than chocolate
even better than sex i should think [not that i would know of course,heh]
I tell u it is such a rush.

I wanna be lost in a foreign country.
I wanna go walking around dependant on a map
I wanna converse with locals based on my new found knowledge thru a language book
i want it all.

and yet,it seems so impossible rite now.
its so frustrating i feel like pulling all my hair off and screech like a banshee.

as you desire

yesterday i decided to treat myself
so i drew myself a VERY hot VERY foamy bubble bath
and enjoyed it with a good Julia Quinn novel,my ipod, and a cup of steaming hot apple green tea

And afterwards,for the whole night, my bathroom was filled with the scent of orange blossoms
[This was due to the fact that i had snatched ibu's orange blossom foaming oil as well as bath gel and poured a healthy dose inside my bath tub]

Speaking of orange blossoms, i recalled a novel i once read about a princess
A princess who was very partial towards Orange Blossoms,
A princess who was tall, blond and in possession of a very furry gigantic dog named Wagner
To state the obvious, the princess is in fact an exact opposite of moi.
But heres where im hoping that may be SOMEDAY i might be blessed with the same fate as the princess

You see the princess was in grave danger,
and decided to disguise herself as a maid in a hunting cabin in SCOTLAND
where she met a very tall,very dashing,drop dead gorgeous,very virile,very alpha male-y,[unfortunately] very blonde, very masculine guy
And if u cant already guess,the guy would be the hero of said novel of course

And similar to all wonderfully written romance novels,
the guy ends up with the princess but not before all the drama, a little bit of violence,some romantic interludes,and all those things we do so love in romance novels just to give it a little bit of spice

Now i know it is just a novel,
And as novel goes, not a very realistic one at that.
But you know, reality can be a tad boring sometimes and you cant help yearning for more
[Especially when compared with people with no imagination whatsoever and are satisfied with their dull and boring lives]

But i wouldnt yearn for all that grave danger nonsense,
just for something interesting,
somthing extraordinary to happen
something whimsical.

And that is why my most favourite word of all time is WHIMSY.
and someday when i die, i would like people to look back and think.
"Remember Iman, she was always so whimsical"

so again,
here is my full-fledged promise,
to never be tied down by anything ordinary,
or to ever be satisfied with anything less than the most amazing things that could ever happen to ones'self

Now dont u agree that is a much much MUCH better way to live one's life?

its time to break the habit.

ok so i know
i havnt been blogging for waaaayyy too long
and the only reason why im blogging now is because i hav something important to share!!!

i think i have diabetes
i might die soon
interesting isnt it?
heh

ok since way back in manchester
i started getting addicted to the pick n mix gummies kan?
especially d strawberry ones and the sour cherries
[actually i had no choice cuz the others had pork gelatine kan,heh]
anywaaaayyyss, whenever we went to the cinema i wud hav a bundle of the pick n mix
but in manchester it wasnt so bad
because...
1. i didnt hav it so often
2. i had raw vegetables evryday without fail

now here in malaysia
where there is endless amount of oily food
and not enough of raw vegetables
i start to skip meals,
like have a few oily food and not eat the rest of d day
since its so hard to eat raw vegetables here i dunno why
[because makanan lain lagi sedap kot,heh]
and now i start to skip all my meals,
except breakfast of course cuz thats when i get my yummy yummy coffee and cereal and weet-bix
yummmmmmmmmmmm
and instead of having a proper meal for lunch or dinner
i start snacking on junk food
and hav that stupid gummies EVERY single day
and ibu wud say "why ru eating so much sugar?"
and i wud say "relaaaax. its the only thing i eat"

but actually its NOT ok
take today for example,
i had my yummy breakfast but i was in a rush so i didnt finish it
then for lunch i had some raw vegetables with a few slivers of chicken je and a few spoons of cendol
then since we were in pavilion we went to the loaf and i had a tall cafe americano,sugarless
and a few bites of the bread
BUT, i bought a big bag of the gummies
and snacked on a LOT of it

so after i got home at abt 9 something
i though ok even tho i was quite hungry i cud skip dinner since i had a lot of d gummies
but then around 10 something i started to get this attacks
which was quite strange,because back then when i only started to crash diet i sometimes only had a piece of bread, or two kiwis A DAY.

But this hunger attack was quite strange,
i felt like i was gonna faint and i NEED FOOD NOW.
so i went downstairs and had two kiwis,one ayam goreng kunyit,one mcd nugget,3 digestive biscuits n half a bagel
and it was while eating the kiwis that i realised i was actually SHAKING

and i knew that when u hav that shaking thing its because of diabetes or something
so i told le mere,
and she said im suffering from sugar rush or something,
like my sugar level went up and low very quickly[due to all the gummies ive consumed this past few days]
aaand ibu said u cud die or get heart attacks as well
[no wonder i was complaining the other day jantung sakit kan sharmi?;p]

so now
i hav to start eating right again,
no more skipping meals and having loads n loads of gummies instead
in fact,gummies are banned from my palate
and starting tomorro,
i hav to start eating more raw vegetables again
and to my friends consider this a warning for u too
DO NOT LET ME BUY THEM GUMMIES EVER AGAIN!
no matter how i beg,heh

yummy

Malaysia is so totally unbelievable
HOME.
it feels like ive never even left :)
and i love the weather!

ok im not dumb enough to actually enjoy a walk outside
but just sitting in my room and opening the balcony door with the fan on is heaven enough :)

and and and i finished reading "The Lost Duke of Wyndham"!
woohoooooo~~~~

i shud definitely blog abt the last day in edinburgh,the bbq,miss kaka's visit
but i am SO lazy

instead guess whos going to the Giuseppe Zanotti end-of-season sale preview??!!!!
thats rite folks, MOI
since ibu got an invite and i alredi RSVP-ed!
i cant waaaaaaaaaaiiit
even tho to buy anything is like to throw away ur life savings,heh
but there will b free cocktails,
and beautiful beautiful to-die-for wonderfully made italian shoes
so its good enough

now if ONLY Olivia Morris wud open a KL boutique,heh