ur daily dose of drama

i have a problem.
i dunno if its only me yang terlebih paranoid
but sometimes,
i get d feeling that ppl say something
and i mean unkind things lah
and they actually wanna say it to me

like i said,
i dunno if its just a feeling
but i recently discovered that i hav good sense of instinct,haha
and usually wut i feel abt a person
wether theyre honest or dishonest with me?
its usually correct.

soooo
wut i dont get is
why not just say it to my face?
why kene cakap behind my back?
why?why?why?
and even IF u wanna talk behind my back
at least,get ur facts straight lah kan

and i'll tell u why they dont wanna talk face to face
because theyre too chicken shit to do it
because to talk directly would be to encourage confrontation
and they dont have it in them for confrontation

so they go abt their wimpy ways and just say nasty stuff behind ppl's back
like thats gonna settle any problems lah kan

i dont know
i need to think this through
and to be honest, it hurts a little when the people u think are ur friend
[yg i dont really like tu i dun mind lah u talking behind my back because u dun really count in my book,heh]
then u discover that,not only are they NOT ur friend,they dont even like u!
or their always suspicious over u
stupid? VERY
childish?EXTREMELY
im 20 lah this year ,and most of my friends are about that age
and if we cant talk things through,
rather than berkata belakang je,
then wut does that show abt us as a person?

ish
i dont know lah
maybe i AM being paranoid

p.s and another thing i hav a problem with is people COPYING me. be it the things i hav,the songs i like even the phrases i use.i DONT like it. but thats just me being mengada,heh