its time to break the habit.

ok so i know
i havnt been blogging for waaaayyy too long
and the only reason why im blogging now is because i hav something important to share!!!

i think i have diabetes
i might die soon
interesting isnt it?
heh

ok since way back in manchester
i started getting addicted to the pick n mix gummies kan?
especially d strawberry ones and the sour cherries
[actually i had no choice cuz the others had pork gelatine kan,heh]
anywaaaayyyss, whenever we went to the cinema i wud hav a bundle of the pick n mix
but in manchester it wasnt so bad
because...
1. i didnt hav it so often
2. i had raw vegetables evryday without fail

now here in malaysia
where there is endless amount of oily food
and not enough of raw vegetables
i start to skip meals,
like have a few oily food and not eat the rest of d day
since its so hard to eat raw vegetables here i dunno why
[because makanan lain lagi sedap kot,heh]
and now i start to skip all my meals,
except breakfast of course cuz thats when i get my yummy yummy coffee and cereal and weet-bix
yummmmmmmmmmmm
and instead of having a proper meal for lunch or dinner
i start snacking on junk food
and hav that stupid gummies EVERY single day
and ibu wud say "why ru eating so much sugar?"
and i wud say "relaaaax. its the only thing i eat"

but actually its NOT ok
take today for example,
i had my yummy breakfast but i was in a rush so i didnt finish it
then for lunch i had some raw vegetables with a few slivers of chicken je and a few spoons of cendol
then since we were in pavilion we went to the loaf and i had a tall cafe americano,sugarless
and a few bites of the bread
BUT, i bought a big bag of the gummies
and snacked on a LOT of it

so after i got home at abt 9 something
i though ok even tho i was quite hungry i cud skip dinner since i had a lot of d gummies
but then around 10 something i started to get this attacks
which was quite strange,because back then when i only started to crash diet i sometimes only had a piece of bread, or two kiwis A DAY.

But this hunger attack was quite strange,
i felt like i was gonna faint and i NEED FOOD NOW.
so i went downstairs and had two kiwis,one ayam goreng kunyit,one mcd nugget,3 digestive biscuits n half a bagel
and it was while eating the kiwis that i realised i was actually SHAKING

and i knew that when u hav that shaking thing its because of diabetes or something
so i told le mere,
and she said im suffering from sugar rush or something,
like my sugar level went up and low very quickly[due to all the gummies ive consumed this past few days]
aaand ibu said u cud die or get heart attacks as well
[no wonder i was complaining the other day jantung sakit kan sharmi?;p]

so now
i hav to start eating right again,
no more skipping meals and having loads n loads of gummies instead
in fact,gummies are banned from my palate
and starting tomorro,
i hav to start eating more raw vegetables again
and to my friends consider this a warning for u too
DO NOT LET ME BUY THEM GUMMIES EVER AGAIN!
no matter how i beg,heh