lead the way...

would u believe its already the 15th of January
and I have those dreaded exams in 3 more days!

yeap its that time of the year again folks
where depression hits practically everyone
pre-exam blues, post-holiday depression
what else what else

and generally,times are bad for everyone now
And im feeling very very VERY low

its this annoying exams that im finding more difficult than ever!
i now know the definition of struggling,for which i never knew before
And with whats happening in Palestine
its really upsetting and frankly scary how humans can be so INhumane
and it bothers me that im not helping except for the little little things which barely counts at all!
and then u have the recession as well!
like i said, times are bad all around
and i feel guilty for all the little expenses i make because ayah will be paying for everything
and looking at the way ayah works,
his money should NOT be spent on my little whims and fancies!

its a triple whammy attack people
and when u throw in the fact that i miss ibu a bit too too much,
well,suffice to say, i am definitely NOT walking on cloud nine

but to avoid sounding like a selfish brat,
its not ALL about me!

so i have this mental plan
of taking things one step at a time
survive these torturous exams
and at the same time,
try to live more frugally and help out with palestine whatever i can do from here

im not trying to achieve leaps and bounds at one go
but maybe i can take it one step at a time
day by day

and hopefully i'll get over these rainy day blues im suffering from
because really,
no one wants a little miss sniffles when I need a commander at this internal war i am currently facing
Im bossy enough and obnoxious enough to be able to take control
so i say,
woe...BE GONE! ;p

check back with me once exams are over
and ppl,
remember i love u no matter how scary i might get at times,heh
Im always here if u ever need a buddy,a shoulder to cry on, and the likes

a part of me u are
and a part of me u'll ALWAYS be :)